For Impatient Control-freaks like Me!

[auth]If you thought that the January article would be about New year's resolutions... Well it's not :) Actually, I am not a person who boasts about New Year's resolutions because I never keep them. Whenever I have taken decisions to change, they were not based on a calendar but on conviction backed by prayer. What I wish to share is an incredible journey of faith and trust in The Lord that Julian and myself have been through over the past year.

The Lord guides us in the way we should go (Psalm 37:23) 

Julian and I had been praying and discerning about a very practical issue... Our home. Our growing family has increasing demands especially in terms of space. When we discerned about having Matthew, our third little sweetie, we knew that our house would become tight, especially in their growing-up years. I felt strongly in prayer that The Lord would take care of HIS own GOOD TIME. Now, my character is rather impatient and tends to be a control- freak. I want to be in control at all times and want things to happen "yesterday". In this situation, both my defects were being challenged -- big time!

We had 2 options: moving house or trying to buy a 4-room property adjacent to our house. This property was not "for sale" but, over the years, its owners had offered it to us at an exorbitant price knowing we would be very tempted to buy it. Of course, the impatient control-freak Helga wanted to move house. We actually looked at quite a few properties.

Put your hope in The Lord and obey HIS commands (Psalm 37:34)

Nevertheless, I knew that Jesus would speak clearly and guide us as to what HE knew would be the best plan. So we prayed and fasted.... And prayed and waited. We surrendered the whole project completely to God.

At this point you may say "Jaq! how super spiritual!" ... Well I would have thought so too. But this is the lesson He keeps challenging me with.

Trust in The Lord and do good ; live in the land and be safe. Seek your happiness in The Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:3-4)

There were times when I thought that the issue was nearly too practical to involve prayer. But then again, if we did not turn to Him in everything we do, we would be no different to non-committed Christians. Julian would ask me: "did Jesus speak yet?" Over the years, the Lord has often spoken through Scripture, so I was really waiting on Him. Till one day I was praying and found Psalm 37. It was this verse that convinced us to stop looking at properties:

Be still before The Lord and wait patiently for HIM (Psalm 37:7)

I was gobsmacked! Me? Wait patiently?! It was a direct challenge from God to trust Him and obey Him patiently. This was July. It took us till December, in very strange, disjointed meetings that we managed to negotiate a price for our next door 4-room property. There was more prayer, fasting and supportive intercession from friends in community. Our Lady featured strongly too (and I was no fan of hers). I am convinced that The Lord softened the owner's heart. There was certainly no other way it could have happened.

The Lord takes care of those who obey Him (Psalm 37:18)

Now we are waiting to sign the contract. I wish to give glory to God for His faithfulness with me and my family through this experience. I have learnt…

1. To listen and seek His will through his Word

2. To be patient and trust that His plan is best

3. To be grateful at all times

I don't know how the story will unfold. I am sure we will continue to face new challenges but whatever happens I am certain that He will continue to work out things for our good.

Helga Consiglio[/auth]